Yes life is hard, yes you have been through a lot but there is no reason for you to act like a victim. You are not a victim of life, you are a survivor. The fact that you are living and breathing right now proves this. Instead of dwelling on what life has done to you, focus on what you can do to make it better because it can be done. Pull yourself together. As it is Easter we should try and remember what Jesus went through, having to be publicly humiliated and hung on a cross, if Jesus was able to endure this and still not act like a victim then you have no excuse.
People have had to overcome difficulties greater than what you have right in front of you. Focus on the bigger picture. Believe you will come out of the situation and it will happen, the key is to keep on and on for as long as it takes and I mean as long as it takes.
We are born fighters our biological makeup proves this, when we have an infection,our body immediately tries to fight and heal this. You should do the same mentally.Believe in yourself!